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I was at the Hospital with my mom today in the early morning. She apperciate it very much that i came with her. 
She had done this my whole life when i had to go to hospital (and she is still by my side when i need to go to the hospital and now it is time that i return this favor.
I was shaking with fear when we sat in the waiting room and i thought I was getting a heart attack the moment the Professor himself invited us into the examination room. He said he was glad that i was with my mom, because she needs someone by her side now and four ears hear better than two
.
He was super kind and so was his nurse. She was a special nurse. A so called "Breast Care Nurse" and very, very kind. While my mom was in a small room next to ours to undress herself i started crying out of nowhere because I just couldn't take it anymore. This fear and this uncertainty were just too much for me at this point and I think i fully realized that my mom has cancer and the professor and the nurse had to calm me down. Heck even my mom had to calm me down when she came out of the room!
After i finally calmed down I watched how the doc examined my mom and after that he told us everything we wanted to know. He is a direct doc and told us how it is: She has a rare form of breast cancer. I thought i was dying inside the moment i realized those words! But before I could start to cry all over again he could calm me down by saying that this form of cancer is not well advanced yet. And he also said it would be good that this is a fast growing form of cancer, because they know what to do than. It has something to do with the female hormons. He said the Tumor is big, but
operable. He also said it would be better that my mom will get a chemotherapy before she gets the surgery, to make sure the chemotherapy works on her body and the tumor and they want to make sure that the tumor gets smaller before they remove it. But fact is: They will remove my mom's complete breast
. She has no problems with this, but that's just the outside. I know her and I also know that this is something that won't leave her cold. I mean we are talking about a breast here and every woman would agree with me: As much as we hate our breasts sometimes but I personally wouldn't want them to be removed...
After that we talked about everything with the breast care nurse and she gave us a lot of informations about future medical treatments, the chemotheraphy, the surgery and everything else. I couldn't stand it anymore and asked THE question (after asking my mom if that's okay for her of course): Will she die or not? And the nurse assured me that my mom will survive, because she is a very positive person and due to advanced treatment options she will make it for sure.
You have no idea how good that felt to hear.
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't think straight in the last days because i was asking myself this question over and over again. What if my mom has a stage 4 or even worse tumor? What if the doctors can't do anything for her? What if this will be the last year i will spend with my mom?
But the nurse assured me that they can cure every stage of breast cancer in this Hospital, even the real hard ones like stage 4 and this was all i needed to know. This Hospital is one of the best of europe and many, many people with cancer of any kind come to this Hospital. My mom will be in very good hands .
Next week she has a doctors marathon before her but we will stay by her side. I will be at her side and so will my sis and my dad. We told the nurse about my dad's condition and that he needs to calm down. I say it how it is: My dad is psychical down at the moment, even worse than me! We got some information material for him and I hope he will read that. I called him right after we were out of the Hospital and he was so worried when I called him, but I managed to calm him down
And do you know what?
My mom will be in the TV because the nurse asked my mom if she would like to be a part of a hospital commentary they want to shoot next week and my mom said yes
She is so excited and so I am. Man my mom in the TV. Awesome 
I am just glad that there is hope, that my mom will make it through all of this. Sure it will be a long and very hard way but I know how strong my mom is and she isn't alone.
We are all here for her.
Because we are one family and a family sticks together, no matter what comes...
She had done this my whole life when i had to go to hospital (and she is still by my side when i need to go to the hospital and now it is time that i return this favor.
I was shaking with fear when we sat in the waiting room and i thought I was getting a heart attack the moment the Professor himself invited us into the examination room. He said he was glad that i was with my mom, because she needs someone by her side now and four ears hear better than two
.He was super kind and so was his nurse. She was a special nurse. A so called "Breast Care Nurse" and very, very kind. While my mom was in a small room next to ours to undress herself i started crying out of nowhere because I just couldn't take it anymore. This fear and this uncertainty were just too much for me at this point and I think i fully realized that my mom has cancer and the professor and the nurse had to calm me down. Heck even my mom had to calm me down when she came out of the room!
After i finally calmed down I watched how the doc examined my mom and after that he told us everything we wanted to know. He is a direct doc and told us how it is: She has a rare form of breast cancer. I thought i was dying inside the moment i realized those words! But before I could start to cry all over again he could calm me down by saying that this form of cancer is not well advanced yet. And he also said it would be good that this is a fast growing form of cancer, because they know what to do than. It has something to do with the female hormons. He said the Tumor is big, but
operable. He also said it would be better that my mom will get a chemotherapy before she gets the surgery, to make sure the chemotherapy works on her body and the tumor and they want to make sure that the tumor gets smaller before they remove it. But fact is: They will remove my mom's complete breast
. She has no problems with this, but that's just the outside. I know her and I also know that this is something that won't leave her cold. I mean we are talking about a breast here and every woman would agree with me: As much as we hate our breasts sometimes but I personally wouldn't want them to be removed...After that we talked about everything with the breast care nurse and she gave us a lot of informations about future medical treatments, the chemotheraphy, the surgery and everything else. I couldn't stand it anymore and asked THE question (after asking my mom if that's okay for her of course): Will she die or not? And the nurse assured me that my mom will survive, because she is a very positive person and due to advanced treatment options she will make it for sure
. You have no idea how good that felt to hear.
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't think straight in the last days because i was asking myself this question over and over again. What if my mom has a stage 4 or even worse tumor? What if the doctors can't do anything for her? What if this will be the last year i will spend with my mom?
But the nurse assured me that they can cure every stage of breast cancer in this Hospital, even the real hard ones like stage 4 and this was all i needed to know
. This Hospital is one of the best of europe and many, many people with cancer of any kind come to this Hospital. My mom will be in very good hands .Next week she has a doctors marathon before her but we will stay by her side. I will be at her side and so will my sis and my dad. We told the nurse about my dad's condition and that he needs to calm down. I say it how it is: My dad is psychical down at the moment, even worse than me! We got some information material for him and I hope he will read that. I called him right after we were out of the Hospital and he was so worried when I called him, but I managed to calm him down
And do you know what?
My mom will be in the TV because the nurse asked my mom if she would like to be a part of a hospital commentary they want to shoot next week and my mom said yes
She is so excited and so I am. Man my mom in the TV. Awesome I am just glad that there is hope, that my mom will make it through all of this. Sure it will be a long and very hard way but I know how strong my mom is and she isn't alone.
We are all here for her
. Because we are one family and a family sticks together, no matter what comes...
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It's terrible that your mom and your family have to go through this, but I'm glad that there seems to be a good outcome in the future. I hope everything goes as smooth as possible!